skrood's brainfarts.

Today, I decided to face my fear… and went to the LAN shop to play Left4Dead with Ernie, Charissa and Yong Hao.

And I am so happy to announce… I AM NOT SCARED OF ZOMBIE GAMES ANYMORE!!as far as L4D is concerned.

Nevertheless… I’m still noobshit, and by that, I really mean noOOoooOOOOOooooOOb shit. I still have a long way to go (for instance, constantly mistaking the scroll wheel for camera zoom/tilt as per TS2/3 when in L4D it’s for switching between weapons/items in the inventory, always accidentally shooting my teammates, dying on them, stupidly being dragged away by hunters, etc, etc, etc). But still… I WANT TO PLAY AGAIN. MUST IMPROVE. MUST… STOP… BEING… STUPID… IN GAMES…

1. The print on my bolster covers feature weightlifters, cricket players, and flappers.
2. I’m listening to Meteora; wish I had that LP back.
3. After hearing about Michael Jackson, Thriller’s been stuck in my head the whole freaking day until now. Maybe I really should just give in and download.
4. Stupid facial woman went on a holiday so my face stays pizza-like. Even my aunt was like “I see that big fat pimple on your chin and I really really want to squeeze the daylights out of it”. In other news, I’ve been told that pimple cream would suffice. I don’t know. I just want my old face back. I look like a train wreck now.
5. I am also shocked to find that I can fucking wear my mother’s new evening gown. This sucks. IT’S FUCKING EXTRA LARGE!!! Okay so it’s a little loose. So what, it’s loose for my mom too. Fuck!
6. I just received my new IC today. I fucking look like some pai kia who’s arrested for DUI and got hauled into the police station at 3AM for a mugshot. Complete with grey hoodie, messy hair and an indignant jibye face. What an improvement from my previous IC photo, in which I looked like an illegal immigrant from rural China.
7. Writer’s block. Deadline’s next Thursday. ‘Nuff said.
8. To all ex-ZHSS people: It’s confirmed, Thana does wear a wig.

I shit you not!

1. Lucy Burb is having a crush on Randy London… but he’s gay and has the hots for Orlando Centowski who also has the hots for him.
2. While I was monitoring some other Sim in that ginormous household Michelle Kearney hits on Sophie Miguel, making them fall in love with one another.
3. Poor Ricky Cormier - he’s trying damn hard to be a casanova but he’s falling flat on his face. It took him three semesters of hanging around campus to get him laid.
4. Clifton Broke, the Don Lothario of the next generation, invades Sim State Uni and is already having thoughts of fucking Donna Dreamer (Tony Stargazer’s girl) and Charlotte Goth, the gorgeous daughter of the wealthy and reputable Goth dynasty…
5. …who still hasn’t gotten over Leonard Burb, her ex-boyfriend.
6. Which is a good thing - within his first day on campus Clifton has already made his first kill - Allegra Gorey.
7. The only couple still intact and going strong here? Donna and Tony.

Can’t wait to check on the other household with Polly (Tony’s older sister) and Beau (Clifton’s second brother) in it.

Don’t, I repeat, DON’T ever stretch while tilting your head at 45 degrees.

You will get the worst neck cramp ever.

Doesn’t anyone realise how stupid they look when they jog?

They removed Bourdie and Phoenix’s Wiki pages >: (

Ah, Fathers’ Day. Good food, good booze, nothing for me to complain except for the fact that I ain’t got no one to shag, but that’s okay.

And by the way. Hoegaarden is awesome.

I’ll say goodbye to love
No one ever cared if I should live or die
Time and time again the chance for love has passed me by
And all I know of love is how to live without it
I just can’t seem to find it

So I’ve made my mind up
I must live my life alone
And though it’s not the easy way
I guess I’ve always known

I’ll say goodbye to love
There are no tomorrows for this heart of mine
Surely time will lose these bitter memories
And I’ll find that there is
Someone to believe in and to live for
Something I could live for

All the years of useless search have finally reached an end
Loneliness and empty days will be my only friend
From this day love is forgotten
I’ll go on as best I can

What lies in the future is a mystery to us all
No one can predict the wheel of fortune as it falls

There may come a time when I will see that I’ve been wrong
But for now this is my song… and it’s goodbye to love

I’ll say goodbye to love.

Goodbye To Love - The Carpenters

Why does the sun go on shining?
Why does the sea rush to shore?

Don’t they know it’s the end of the world
‘Cause you don’t love me anymore?

Why do the birds go on singing?
Why do the stars glow above?

Don’t they know it’s the end of the world?
It ended when I lost your love.

I wake up in the morning and I wonder
Why everything’s the same as it was
I can’t understand, no I can’t understand
How life goes on the way it does

Why does my heart go on beating?
Why do these eyes of mine cry?

Don’t they know it’s the end of the world?
It ended when you said goodbye.

End Of The World - Skeeter Davis

But no matter what I’m still happy with what I’m assigned with!

Is going to be a busy busy day.

Busy day full of shit.

Busy day full of uncertainties.

Strangely, it’s the way I like it, and the way I’d rather things be.

Months ago, my life was so stagnant and there was absolutely nothing to live for.

At least now, I’ve some impetus to live on.

Thank you, for being part of the impetus, amongst other things.

AND I AM ON A CAFFEINE BAN.

LOL

So, about my medical report. Apparently I’m all normal, except my heart rate’s too fast 55% of the time.

My caffeine ban is extended. 3 more months.

I’m put back on beta blockers.

Doctor suggested I drink one glass of milk a day and eat more eggs. And introduce fish back into my diet. Which I will not.

Apparently I lack vitamin B, which is supposed to help in regulating my heart rate. And guess where is vitamin B found? Meat, eggs, milk, etc.

Also. I will need to see the doctor 3 months later for a follow-up. Damn money-grubbing bastards.

Dear Stupid Tan Tock Seng Nurse, are you sure I am only 1.54m? AND 58KG WHICH IS MY PRE TAF CLUB WEIGHT. WHERE DID ALL THAT COME FROM HUH!

Did I mention that I exhausted 8 bottles of Pink Dolphin and three bowls of instant noodles in three days at HKHK?

哇。毕业的感觉⋯

真是令我百感交集。

筹备这次的毕业演出，花了不少功夫，遇到了不少困难。

问过多少次，“Should we postpone？”

有过多少次，12点就寝，凌晨5点还是睡不好？

曾有过多少令人气馁，令人懊恼的时候，想有点冲刺却力不从心，想放弃又觉得太多遗憾。

毕业的心情⋯哎呀。无法形容。

从班到团，从《巫婆山传奇》到《阿里巴巴和21大小盗》，从红团到银团到金团⋯ 不知不觉就在福建会馆混了11年！之前都觉得不像是会馆的一份子，但是这几个月来，亲自筹备演出的过程中，再次肯定了，我是会馆的团员之一。

金团2009，我们终于毕业了！